To whom It May Concern Part V....

What m I afraid of??.. It's happened.. One of those days u just pick up my call when I call u so tht I can still hoping.. My finger was getting tired to press ur every number but u still freeze.. How I wish still hoping tht u knew how much I luv u.. cant stop loving u..couldnt go on leaving without u.. n u still luving me like i luv u..

To whom It may Concern..
I miss u ever-fervant smile.. I miss tht familiar scent tht you have.. whenever we were together.. I miss the warmth of ur body.. I miss ur arms when u cuddle me close to u... I miss ur voice.. miss ur naughtiness.. n I miss u.. If I hv never said it, pls be a friend I can depend on. Pls be someone who loves me.. pls be my one n only.. For me only hv u in my life.. I will never falter and quiver with u loving me.. Lets give us another chance and take it one day at a time and I promise u a better life.. we will face challenges in life and God test will come but beleive in me.. as I do.. u and I will always be the hand tht holds U through it all.. 2be continued..

Once Upon A Time Part IV....

Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:12:38): syggggggggg
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:12:43): syg dah ok??
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:12:57): blom
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:13:32): makin sihat ke makin teruk?
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:13:52): td mcm sme je
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:13:56): jap pns sgt
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:14:01): jap sjuk sgt
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:14:05): ni ok skit
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:14:11): bru dpt mkn
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:14:29): jgn lupa mkn antibiotik tu
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:14:32): mkn apa?
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:14:39): roti
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:14:53): ok la tu
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:15:00): janji ada isi perut
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:15:15): bru je
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:15:25): td mkn ubt mnum teh je
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:16:07): xpe janji jgn muntah
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:16:41): ni roti rse kt tekak je lgi
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:17:10): hehhee
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:17:26): sabar ckit ye syg..
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:17:30): nanti ok la tu
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:17:43): hrp2 la
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:17:50): tpi xleh jln lme2
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:17:56): cm nk jatoh
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:18:50): rehat je dulu
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:19:09): ok
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:22:45): buat ape je 2
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:23:04): tgk profile org huhuhu
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:24:09): profile sape
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:25:07): sapa2 je yg jg fren i
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:25:47): contohnye
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:26:41): yatie
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:26:58): setakat ni tiha
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:28:04): nape syg? jeles ek
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:32:45): emm
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:32:48): xde la
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:50:17): ooo
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:50:26): amik gmba ng pu3
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 19:50:33): ptot xnk tman org
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:51:55): alaaa... syg
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 19:52:39): bukan sengaja pun
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:18:34): ehhhhhhhhh... tumbuk orgg..
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:25:52): pdn muke
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:26:54): ehh.. jahatnya
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:27:00): geram
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:27:05): nape lak
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:30:12): sygg
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:30:22): hmm
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:30:48): rindu
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:33:09): sape
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:42:59): ooo... squeezee org
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:43:08): yup
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:43:16): ademslh ke
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:44:16): xde
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:44:52): bgus
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:45:06): nape?
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:45:12): xdepe
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:45:57): npe
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:47:03): xdepe
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:48:48): npe xdepe
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:49:00): sb awk pun xdepe
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:49:12): npe nk ikot org
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:49:24): ikut org yg kita syg
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:49:35): npe syg
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:50:53): sb dia pun syg kita
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:51:29): mne tau?
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:52:16): tau
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:52:27): mcmna tau
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:52:31): tau la
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:52:37): mcmna
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:52:54): ada la
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:52:58): mcmna
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:53:15): adala
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:53:20): mcmna
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:53:44): mcmtu
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:53:48): mcmna
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:54:12): nk mtah la
Miss Lovely (11/05/2009 20:54:15): jap
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:54:39): nak blk syg
Mr Magoo (11/05/2009 20:56:05): bye syg

To whom it may concern part III....

I luv n miss u so very much.. I just dun know how to express myself.. my heart... and my undying luv towards u.. Its not by words tht I can convey my feelings n I realize tht.. I want you to give me an opportunity to redeem myself.. I want u to see myself by my actions n the things tht I m willing to do (God willing) u will be convinced tht my luv for u is somethings tht cannot vanish through the rest of time...

To whom it may concern..
Whenever I turn I see u.. what am to do as slowly I drown in my own sorrow?.. Everyday life without u seem painful enough.. the moment waiting for u seems longer every day... My mind usher me to think about other things and my heart cries slowly with full of emotion while sadness swallowed my voice tht is calling for u every morning when I try to get up. I pause n gently wipe my sorrows with my fingers and realize tht how miserable it was to go through wht u hv gone through..

To whom it may concern..
I know if I continue with my life without u I will look back and question myself 'what if?'... 'why'??...
I luv n miss u so very much.. I just dont know how else to express myself.. my heart.. my undying towards u..

To whom it may concern part II....

You represent my effort..
You represent my love..
You represent everything I want in my life..
Nothing I give or do..
Could ever match the way you luv me..
I admire u so much...
If it is possible to wish.. I would wish tht I can see u in every one of our children..

I want to be with u every second..
Everyday of my life..
I want to hv u so tht I could smell the ascends of love in u....

I Want u to be closed to me...
I want u to feel my heart..
I want u to know how much u mean to me..
I want u to trust me bcoz I m nothing without u..

But what can I say??
I know what ever happen between us is bcoz of my own wrongdoing... my own fault.. what can I say??? I m just ignorant fool and I admit it.. Sometimes only when the person is not with u tht u will realize what u have lost.. I tried to go to my own life like what u want but i just cant..

yeahh!!! Its awkward to write to u when i can just pick up my mobile and call u like b4 but when I think of it again.. its best to write to u so u can read this over and over again to hv a little bit understanding of what i m going tru rite now.. rite here without u loving me like b4... not anymore... 2be continue...

Touching me...

'kenapa masih menulis tentang dia?'

ya, aku selalu menulis tentang dia. mungkin akan sentiasa menulis. selagi dia masih ada dalam hidup ku. walaupun yang tinggal kini cuma sisa-sisa.

tapi saki baki yang wujud itu masih mampu memberi aku peluang dan ruang untuk mencatat dan mengimbau segala kenangan yang ada. masih boleh menghasilkan luahan rasa dan bicara mata pena yang akan aku memoirkan di sini.

dia adalah hidup aku.

dalam aku ada dia, sentiasa akan ada. terlalu banyak benda, harapan, kenangan dan impian yang dilalui dan dikongsi bersama. dia pernah memiliki hati ini. susah untuk aku padam semuanya dalam sekelip mata.

dia hadir memberi warna dalam hidupku. warna yang indah, yang terang, yang berkilau, yang redup, yang bercahaya walaupun itu semua cuma untuk seketika. walaupun warna yang terpalit tidak begitu indah akhir-akhir ini. tapi itu semua hasil tulisan tangannya.

aku tak punya cukup kekuatan untuk bubarkan semua yang ada dalam waktu sesaat. banyak masa diperlukan untuk kembalikan aku kepada aku yang dulu, atau mungkin aku hanya mampu menjadi separuh daripada aku yang dulu, kerana sememangnya aku telah berubah.

dikit demi dikit. waktu demi waktu. ia merubah seorang aku.

dan aku akan masih menulis tentang dia. walaupun sudah tidak bersama. walaupun penghubung antara kami hanya lah kata-kata semata. walaupun dia jauh bahagia dengan orang di sana.

aku tetap di sini.

bukan menunggu. bukan merindui. bukan juga meratapi. tapi aku memenuhi masa-masa lapangku dengan kenangan kami, yang mungkin terpaksa dibiarkan terkubur sebaik sahaja aku juga membuka hati kepada yang lain suatu ketika nanti.

sekarang dia masih di hati, tapi sudah samar-samar. sudah kabur dengan masa akan datang. yang pasti perlahan-lahan dia akan meninggalkan hati ini menjadi lohong yang mungkin mampu dipenuhi oleh orang yang sudah ditakdirkan.

Mr.Magoo atau Mr Crab, bahagia lah kamu di sana. aku mendoakan yang baik-baik sahaja.

hingga jumpa lagi!

-aku ralat kompleks

To whom it may concern...

Why is it only when we’re apart i miss and love u more….?
It is not the distance or time that causes me to feel this way but the fact that we’re not together makes me love u even more everyday…
I never wanted to hurt you nor do I want to hurt myself...
If being with you will hurt us both, I rather be away and love you from a distance...
I rather be away and dream of touching you… whenever we talk…
I rather be away and having you to love me, miss me and dream of me everyday of my life...
I’ll never have the opportunity to kiss u or hug u again but I’ll always have you in my heart….
Scared as I am, to be with you not because of my ability to make you happy but because I know I’ll never give you away to anyone….
i deserve to lose u if u dont love me but i deserve not to lose u if u re coldheartless... always pray good in u...

Deep in my heart saying...

I wish life was as simple as you and I want it to be but I guess in life, nothing is as beautiful as what we hope for. We do face sadness in our life but the sadness never last. Each day as we grow wiser and learn to accept our life’s humble teachings we will create one joy and with that one joy we will shatter a hundred griefs. Let’s create the joy together and shatters any grief that comes our way.